Its been quite a year for most and we know its just the start of the period of change and new evolution with the powerful planetary alignment coming in December 2012. Change is not easy to experience and quite often we fight it preferring the ‘better the devil you know’ approach. Afterall, what if it gets worse for allowing the change into your life? But what if things got better? Thats the whole surrender to the Universe philosophy Ive mentioned before.
I know that I am quite adept at stuffing things up. How many times in life do we make the wrong decision, say the wrong thing, do something unfortunate and end up in a desperate situation of wanting it fixed. But even at that point we still wont hand over the reigns of our life to anyone, not even a professional. Why? Because we think they might stuff it up!! Funny when you think about it, talk about the pot calling the kettle black! The confronting year that has been, contained some painful items for some. And most of those items have had the sense of loss behind them. Loss of a pet. Loss of a human. Loss of a relationship. Loss of income. Loss of the ability to be well and function. Loss of faith. Or just genuinely being lost. Yes it hurts and the lack of control over the situation makes people feel helpless and then its easy to give up or give in to fear. Thats when we stumble in our progress because we let fear interfere! Allow yourself to feel the pain just so you can acknowledge it and move through it. But the fear is when you doubt yourself, others and the Universe. Ive experienced so many losses in my 44 years, more than is usual. But the knowledge and experience of it has not made me an expert on it. The pain and shock, anger and resentment lasts as long as it needs to, for people to get through it. Its different for each person, no two are the same, so dont compare yourself with others. In fact, its even different within yourself. Some losses are quicker to get over than others and may not even make sense to you. Why was it worse to lose a job than a relationship, or why was it sadder for the dog or ferret to die than a relative? So dont compare yourself with yourself either, emotion is not logical. It just is what it is. With loss also comes regrets where we start to mentally list where we fell short or what could of been different, to change the final outcome. The old adage ‘everything happens for a reason’ is very true but hard to hear at the time of the pain. Even if you say it to yourself for comfort, it somehow sounds so hollow. And even more annoying when someone else says it in a bid to make you feel better. Ive experience loss many times as I said, and am facing it in the immediate future in many forms. I think its worse when you know its coming and cant stop it. But I guess when looking at this overall picture, Ive come to the conclusion that its all directed towards the significant 2012 and clearing space to allow room for new developments. Not to mention the old karmic scales from past lives and lessons needing to be learnt and relearnt. Obviously all this emotion makes us human. We are hardest on ourselves than on anybody else. But remember, we are just souls having a human experience and maybe its time to lighten up on ourselves. Yes its important to forgive others in order to release negative blockages. But lets not forget ourselves on that forgiveness list. Maybe this Xmas should be not a time wholly and soully for family, friends or religion, but a little bit of time just for ourselves to reflect, forgive and love ourselves. Be kind to our inner child and let him/her play and be acknowledged. Make sure that this precious moment is just for you. Too many people live wholly for others and lose themselves along the way. Thinking that if they do this they will be popular or loved more. Its not doing yourself a favour in your own development though. So my Xmas Wish for you (and myself) is to give yourself the gift of attention, to be real to yourself, feel what you need to and reward yourself for giving you a moment of your time.
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AuthorTerri Graham is first and foremost an Artist and a Healer. Archives
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